Monday, October 29, 2012


Great song by Howie Day...


I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind


Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find 
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide..

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Somewhere only we know

Just watched one of the classic romcoms that I can't get enough of - "He's Just Not That Into You". Every time I watch it, I'm reminded of the fact that I need to stop attaching a meaning to "every message I receive from him". And there is a very simple reason for that: We would have been dating for a looong long time if he had been interested. He would have made it happen. As he obviously has not made it happen; he's just not that into me; time to move on.

And the music... I love Keane but for some reason I keep forgetting this and don't really listen to them that often. So every time I watch the movie, and every time the happily-ever-after scene comes up (neutralizing the big-bang advice the movie gives via the rest of the scenes - yes, the guy realizes just how stupid he has been by not noticing the feelings he has for the girl!), I smile and sing along, secretly wishing my life could some day be like an alternative music video of this song...

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go 
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

Sunday, September 2, 2012

"I do" vs "Single&Fabulous"

It's official: I've just become of age to go to my friends' weddings.

NOT my parents' friends' kids' weddings any more, not with my parents - it really feels weird having friends invite you to their happiest day and witness their happiness with common friends..

I really can't help think back to those times when we were silly little girls, trying to figure out whether "that boy" was fancying her or "his friend" was ever going to like me, attaching a special meaning to whatever they were saying/doing/texting (as if I don't do that any more - some things never change). Part of me wants to live those times all over again (which is very stupid because I actually would never want to go back to highschool and live thru 10 years from the beginning - too much gossip, too much drama for my taste!), while another part of me embraces a grandma-like mindset and keeps saying "you really have grown up, all of you.." (too grown up for my taste!)

And of course there come the thoughts - Do I want to be in their place? With whom? When? How? Where?..

My answer? Not just yet, for sure (for obvious reasons on the "with" part and for many others on the others) - so no worries, it seems I will remain single&fabulous (a great quote by Carrie Bradshaw) for some more time.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Modern Day Fairytales

It is a truth universally acknowledged that a 20-something-single-girl with a newly-kicked-off career must be in want (search) of unconquered love (to be utterly and thoroughly happy). 

Yes, I'm a big Jane Austen fan. I practically grew up with Pride&Prejudice as my bedside novel. Back in midschool, I remember myself placing the people in my life in the roles of P&P characters (guess who I was?). When this game became boring, I invented another one: whenever I'm abroad, I search thru bookstores for books with a title reference to Austen/P&P (yes, I really have enough books to open my own Jane Austen store). I smile whenever I read an Austen-fan author's Austen references in between the lines - sort of an inside joke. I can even sense the Austen-impact on some authors' styles, especially on the male protagonists. Speaking of which (and cutting to the chase) - yes, ever since I was a teenage girl, I have been dreaming of the existence of a certain Mr. Darcy.

And looking at the way modern day relationships roll out, I guess we can still keep our hopes up - Darcys are really out there. Looking for examples? Some Darcys' small but meaningful gestures sometimes going unnoticed by the modern-day Elizabeths.. Extremely shy Darcys considered as smug.. Deceitful Wickhams believed to be "the one" (for a short time, hopefully) while poor Darcys are overlooked (until the Wickhams end up with their perfect-match-Ms-Nobodies).. Other Darcys selflessly and continously saving the day for Elizabeths, no matter how big or small the case.. In any case, Darcys&Elizabeths having ups&downs and arguments and misunderstandings - and yet their relationship ultimately surviving all..

See, Darcy does exist. Not as a whole maybe, but as bits and pieces in many Darcys. Call me a romantic - I'll always be a fan of modern day fairytales..